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It always feels so cheap writing these damn profiles, like I'm trying to sell myself or something. Those of you who know me and come here don’t need to know any of this shit, and I don't know if I care enough about those who don’t know me to make the effort.
I guess I'll keep it simple just in case it does become relevant somehow.
Female, 35 years old, divorced. Avid gamer when I can find a GM, self proclaimed geek. A pacifist who occasionally feels the need to kick the shit out of someone or the desire to blow something up. Pagan leftist if I must be pigeonholed, but with views too eclectic and opposing to fit anywhere comfortably. Ambivalent sexuality, fluid personal style. Insecure with delusions of grandeur.
....there you go....
I'm going to cheat here and run a long quote from one of my newest favorite books, AMERICAN GODS by Neil GaimanIt comes startlingly close to my own views. You can find my own rants in my entries and scattered around
I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if their true or not. I can believe in Santa Clause and the Easter bunny and Marilyn Munro and Elvis. Listen-I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite and the world is run by secret banking cartels and visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkly lemurs and bad ones who mutilate our cattle and want our water and our women. I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman will come back and kick everyone’s ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in Drive-In movie theaters from state to state. I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks but I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to sink into madness and alligators and toxic waste. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one-day we will be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in The War Of The Worlds. I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one armed Siberian shaman. I believe that mankind’s destiny is in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that its aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there’s a cat in a box somewhere who’s alive and dead at the same time(although if they don’t ever open the box to find out it’ll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself. I believe in a personal God who cares about me and worries and oversees every single thing I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of casual chaos, background noise and sheer blind luck. I believe that anyone who says sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that someone who claims they know what’s going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman’s right to choose, a babies right to live, that while all life is sacred there’s nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no-one but a moron would ever trust the legal system. I believe that life is a game, that it is a cruel joke, that its what happens when you’re alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Did you know that a new set of valves cost 400$? did you know that the
winds in The Gorge reach gusts of up to 70km an hour? that I'm too tall
for my bike and sometimes it hurts if I ride more than 5 hours a day?
did you know that 63 percent of all highway accidents with motorcycles
are fatalities, and another 20 percent end in paralization and
mutilation? that I want to spent my time on my bike with no schedule so
I can stop when i want and go where I want and not worry about where I
have to be when? did you know that if you stick close to your mom she
will pay for a lot of stuff and drive half the time? did you know that
time slips away like breath on a high wind and suddenly you're running
out of both time and breath?
anyway, those are the reasons I went down the coast with my Mom in the
car instead of riding my bike. I feel like I chickened out a little and
maybe I did, but I know I'll get the chance again and next time I'll be
better prepared financially, mechanically and physically.
The trip itself was great. One of the things I like best about North
America is the feeling that it's not quite tamed yet. Most of the places
I've been to in the UK, Europe, and even China feel like they have been
civilized to the point of domesticating the land. I can drive for an
hour in Canada (and most of the US) and reach a place where the land
will kill you if you get lost in it. Where nature still rules, and I
feel humbled in her presence. I like that.
Some random impressions
bunnies making a cougar buffet at a campground (Washington)
the sea and sky merging in grey salt mist to obscure the rocky strips of
land jutting into the wet (Oregon)
the smell of pine and ceder filling my head with sweet freedom (Oregon)
tree covered mountains stretching into an impossible distance, each
horizon a new possibility (Montana)
waking up to the sound of the Columbia river roaring by like a freight
train
gotta fly, going to try and contact Jake and Fern today...hugs to all
T
Posted at 12:07 am by tamaraleigh
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